Coping

I have been told two things over and over during the past several months.  One is, "one of the most stressful things in a marriage and family is having and/or caring for a sick child."  The second one is, "when under A LOT of stress we revert to behavior of a five year old child."  I agree with both of these 100 percent after seeing my life as I did yesterday.

With that said maybe some of you can more fully understand the high levels of anxiety, yelling, tears, whining, saying things that shouldn't be said and frustrations that reside at my home.  It is filled with a bunch of five year olds interacting with each other.  We are all trying our very best, but sometimes, to an outsider this very best might seem a little immature and even wrong.  Thank heavens for a loving Heavenly Father who understands each of our hearts and is the one to make the final judgment. 

I am sorry to any of you and more importantly to my own little family for my behavior.  Some days it is tears and sometimes it is "freak out" mode and sometimes I know I have said stuff that should be classified as unforgivable.  We all are trying to just survive and hold a little bit of happiness together and in our own methods, we cross paths and are hurtful. 

I love my family.  I know that Ken works so very hard for us, not because he likes to, but because he loves us and wants the world to be at our fingertips.  I know that each of my children love one another and their parents and I hope they know how much we love them.  When life calms down some, I pray that my coping mechanisms haven't ruined what mine and Ken's whole goal in life is-happiness together.