Blessings

So we are back for the second round of treatment today. It is so weird that Odette has such different personalities lately. At home she has been so happy, but we walked into the hospital and she instantly was grumpy and would not crack a smile. Then came the tears when all of her vitals were taken, but that wasn't bad. When she has a spinal tap, they put her out. It is frightning to me to watch her look at me with her beautiful open eyes and then in an instant be out and completely limp. Sure I love when she has a nap or sleeps at night, but this is awful. Once she woke up, the puking began. She had to have her bed changed three times in an hour and her daddy had to change his clothes also. Then it was out the other end. I sure hope her diaper rash doesn't get as bad as last time. When things are so sad, frustrating and depressing and I know that there is nothing I can do for this little one, I think of how our Heavenly Father must feel when he sees us suffer, especially needlessly. It must be really hard. I also try and think of the good things. It helps I think to make a list and then life seems to have more rays of sunshine:

• Odette learned how to drink out of a bottle today!
• Brandt and Kathleen are able to do their scouts and swimming thanks to great neighbors!
• Our grass and yard are not dead...yet!
• We got 5 pounds of raspberries out of our backyard in the past two weeks!
• I haven't had to worry about shopping for food or toliet paper because we are prepared for a year or more if you count all my noodles!
• I have had more time to read my scriptures while in the hospital.
• I have made great friends at the hospital and am trying a little missionary work!
• Our family is being stregthened by this trial in many ways.
• Other people are learning from our struggles.
• Josselyn has an excuse for no hair and hopefully she will quit pulling!
• I have learned I don't ever want to be a nurse! (I thought teaching teenagers could be an emotional rollercoaster!)
• I was reminded of how important families are.
• I know we need to cherish, love and be quick to forgive those around us because we never know when they will be gone or the opportunity gone.
• I know HEAVENLY FATHER LOVES ME!

There are so many I could go on and on, but I think that is all you need to know for the time being. Thanks to all of you who have helped me be strong and remember these blessings and what is truly important in life!