So you know how it is always said, "We go through trials to learn lessons and become stronger." Sometimes going through the trial, you do like I have done and just try and keep your head above water. Who cares what you are learning, you just don't want to drown! Well, today as I was driving, I was thinking, which is rare (because then I can't concentrate on driving because of all the tears!) and I realized one of the reasons why I am going through the trial of having and caring for a very sick little girl.
Ken has always told me that I am way to nice. Many people have also told me that I need to learn to say "No". I have always loved pretty much everyone and always said yes in helping someone else, even if it seemed impossible to do or caused my day to be extremely chaotic. In going through my trial, I have had to swallow my pride and have so many people help me instead of the other way around. It has been difficult and often embarrasing to admit that I can't do this alone. HUMILITY
I have had the opportunity to be the compasionate service leader a few times and I loved it...I love to serve, care and feel for others. Now, I can care one step more because I have walked in places that not many get the chance to walk in and felt things that not just anyone can understand. I have a deeper understanding of the unconditional love that our Father in Heaven has for each of us, no matter what our circumstance. (Or how dumb we behave.)
While at the hospital, I have prayed that I could be of help to someone every day. Amazingly, I have been able to do this because all wounds aren't healed with a casserole. I have made friends and connected with people on a whole new level. I have never felt so much love and understanding for people that I hardly know. It is the most amazing and overwhelming feeling--indescribable. I know that the more you are willing to give, even if you don't think you have anything to give, you will be blessed 100 fold! It seems crazy to give someone $10 when you don't really have it to give, but then to get $1000 in return...what can I say? Obviously CHARITY NEVER FAILETH.
Stephanie, you are incredible! Thank you for sharing these lessons with us so that we can have a better understanding of some of those tougher trials. I know I still have no clue what you experience or how you struggle, but you give me the desire to be more compassionate to others.
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